Well never in a million years did i think I WOULD EVER START A BLOG! but here I am typing my thoughts and my life on a web page for all to see... I hold alot in side, Only speaking my feeling and thoughts to a selected few in my circle. Then almost 2 months ago (58 days ago) my dad... MY DADDY passed away and it was the most surreal moment in my whole life... all I could do was keep my self busy, everyone asked "How are you? Are you okay?" and I found my self begging God to stop that question but instead he gave me the strength to say "I'm Fine!" (by the way no one means it and everyone know it but oh f-ing well)... and I kept this all in not talking to anyone even in my small circle... that lasted exactly 4 days before I was sitting at work one afternoon and all I could do was open up word and start typing my heart out while sobbing at the keyboard of all I had typed! Now I know the power of getting things off my chest! Now fewer people then before asked "How are you doing?" and again I reply "Fine"... if you really want to know then read this blog because it is probably the only way you are going to find out what is really in my head... I won't discuss it with anyone because I don't want to start cry allover your shoulder... trust me people have tried to no avail... even my mother!!! Now if you're okay with my "Fine" then I am definitely okay with it and we can all move on!
I know I am trying to!
No comments:
Post a Comment